In His Pursuit

When you do not see it, it is hard to have hope. This March has been a series of hope time with the Lord. I am reading the book of Romans and I thought about the gospel. The Lord is impressing on me to press on in the gospel. To hope in Him. To hope for Him. And to hope in His plans- His best. Eternity. February was more on Faith. And I tell you, it is hard. 2018 as many of you knows is my year dedicated to our Lord Jesus Christ well maybe special because I wanted to just have Him this year. No strings attached to anyone. But I am tempted to just break it because I feel like I am in the right age. That sometimes I get so frustrated that no one is pursuing me. That I feel insecure knowing that I can fight on my own and just get the man that I want but I know that that is not the will that He wants for me. That is not the best. I am reading pa naman this book Different by Design by John Macarthur about being a woman who would wait on Him. When will love come to play, I asked. Someti...

I am still bothered about how I felt last Saturday about leaving my family going to Baguio with friends. Reality dawned on me that I was leaving my family for a time. How much more if I leave my family to be joined to my future husband. I am learning since the beginning of time to be secure in God and to live for Him alone. But I always go back to it. I feel like I am going back to my old self that I wanted attention and affection from people. Which only Christ satisfies. I've always dreamt of having a nice love story written by God and yet there are times that I want to do it myself. Balancing God's work and your responsibility is almost hard to weigh. Just like being your unique God-designed self to being Christ-like. But only by His grace. In our weekend getaway, I saw how I am such a sinner. God humbled me and I pray that He would continue to humble and prune me into His image. I saw how I needed Him financially, physically, in leading people to Him and most importantl...

I'm back! I started blogging this 2018 at the first two Wednesdays of January and I am continuing it for the last two Wednesdays of February. Commitment wasn't followed up. I'll jumpstart from that to start this blog for tonight. I was not so excited for this year to come. I have mentioned it in my previous write up since 2017 was a pretty much for me, wasn't what I wanted it to be. Distracted. So this year, I wanted to start cool. No expectations but wanted to plan and stick to those plans. One of them is getting into the gym more regularly. I am very lukewarm about it since my mom would always tell me that I am too skinny to go to the gym which I don't get because I go to the gym for health purposes and not to get skinny but I believe that I was fooling myself. I really wanted to get that abs. Yes. I am honest now. And because of that goal, I started the year, well every year, I run on the first day of the year. And I did ball. And after I met with a friend fro...

Hello blog! HAHAHA. You don't start a blog like this, right? Haha. I am really disappointed with how I am not getting better at anything. How I feel like I started from the top and now I am here. HAHAHA instead of started from the bottom now we're here. I found an article of mine about Christ-confidence last 2013. Linking it because this was a  Planetshakers inspired blog  because of their song I Just Want You and I just recently went to their Manila tour. And man, I wanted to go back on the right track. You see, there are things in my life that I wanted to just control. I wanted to do certain things for me to be said to fit in. I like to do those things but I make it exaggerated. And so, I tend to forget other things because I am so focused on trying to do my best to fit in and end up losing because at the end of the day, the last say is God's. I do not know how this blog will end. I am sorry that I don't do my outline as a good writer should. But you know, I am...

It is not what other people say that will matter but what God says. At the end of the day, it is God's judgment that prevails. And so, this week, thinking of Jesus and Philippians 4:8 New American Standard Bible (NASB) 8  Finally, brethren,  whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is  [ a ] lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise,  [ b ] dwell on these things. If the Lord sees your heart and your mind, what will be printed out? Will it show Him or show your own desires? This week is prayer and fasting week and I tell you, food is something that is hard for me to let go but I got sick so I had to media fast and just have food fast after this week. Another hard to let go for me is money. You see, I can be selfish at times and the hardest thing for me to think is being madamot to the Lord. And this just shows my lack of trust of the Lord, of His Sovereignty an...

This is our antennae where I used to climb thinking it was so high that I cannot reach it, but now, I can't even fit my feet on the second level of the tower.   The entrance, where I felt like those gates  where so huge. The part with mountains is Bataan.    The river where we frequently dived into, but now, I don't think you still can.  This side will show Mount Arayat Visited my lola and lolo at the cemetery. How things were so big then and now they seem so small. Can we just go back to that time when things were small but with my age advanced? When all I worry about are things like, will I pass, will I be on time for the flag ceremony, will I get to my crush's attention, will my mom allow me to go to a barkada outing to the most vivid memory of my kinder exam, will I be able to answer the right color for the no fill fruits. That Avocado though! But, that cannot be. You need to borrow one. That math ah. I felt like I would never be...

I've been itching to write here and so I am here. I looked for my laptop in the office despite of there is no work today. My heart is so full and it will burst with different emotions anytime like now, my emotions changed again. I told you in my last blog that I feel like 2017 has been so bad for me but I realized that I should not base things on the circumstances that are happening around me. So, I moved forward with a mindset of Christ's sufficiency. Before the year ends, the Lord has allowed me to get up early and hike with some friends at Montalban Rizal, Philippines. I've always wanted to go but the last time I was suppose to go, my mom got sick. This time, I asked her if she would allow me and she said, yes, quickly. I was at peace even though honestly I do not want to go because I do not know everyone. But, I had the motivation to buy mountaineering gears to a God-led store. I was just strolling in the mall while waiting for a friend and for the first time in 24...