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No Reservations

Hello blog! HAHAHA. You don't start a blog like this, right? Haha.

I am really disappointed with how I am not getting better at anything. How I feel like I started from the top and now I am here. HAHAHA instead of started from the bottom now we're here. I found an article of mine about Christ-confidence last 2013. Linking it because this was a Planetshakers inspired blog because of their song I Just Want You and I just recently went to their Manila tour. And man, I wanted to go back on the right track.

You see, there are things in my life that I wanted to just control. I wanted to do certain things for me to be said to fit in. I like to do those things but I make it exaggerated. And so, I tend to forget other things because I am so focused on trying to do my best to fit in and end up losing because at the end of the day, the last say is God's.

I do not know how this blog will end. I am sorry that I don't do my outline as a good writer should. But you know, I am just pouring my heart out.

There are times that I want to quit what I do for the Lord comparing myself to others. Sometimes, I just want to disappear and just get myself together again but I do not want to do any other thing but to be with Jesus. Ayoko mag-movie. I want God's love to pour in to me again. I want to know Him deeper to the point that I would never be insecure to the point na okay lang ako na kaming dalawa na lang forever. Yung tipong wala kang gugustuhin kundi mapasaya ang Panginoon. That I would not love this world, the status and what others would tell of me. That I would be so content in Him and always be reminded of how small I am yet I am loved by Christ fully and I am safe in His arms.

I surrender. I think I will end this blog with this statement. How many times will I say this and how many times will I hear this in any and every message? Christian living is really about surrendering to Jesus Christ because He knows what is best. And my heart is deceitful so I would just pagkatiwala my heart to the One who can take care of it fully. To the One who would not break it. Lord, just keep my heart in your hands. Do not make it fall for anybody whom you do not want. Yun pala yun. Love life.

The more I know Him, the more I can trust Him. I will not reserve anything for myself to You because You deserve everything in me, kulang pa nga. <3


Lord God, please comfort the people who are reading this blog. Help us overcome our unbelief and help us trust You because You are Holy and You are Good. You are all I need. You are all I want.

In His Pursuit,
Michelle
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