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Consistency

 



This would be how I would look like if asked what I would say to my younger self. Adding, I hope you obey God’s no consistently because it won’t get any easy as you get older. 

Sometimes, because we know that God is Gracious, we would already spend our lives in the way we want it to go knowing that God forgives and He rescues. But as what we have been repeating in this blog, we cannot escape the unnecessary pains that we could have missed if we just chose to yield to the Holy Spirit’s leading.

Consistency in your love for Jesus is difficult. A one-time high or a seasonal-high in basketball won’t give you the championship. It will just win you games but the goal is to not just win games, the goal is your whole self experiencing Christ and being transformed into His image. 

I learned about myself that whenever I feel like I’ve had enough of God for the day, I would stop being in His presence and will just do my thing. I make Him a to-do list that after talking to Him for the day, I would forget Him altogether and think and speak whatever way I want. After all, I am just being myself.

In the previous blog, I have told you how Iam knowing myself better and that can help you as you walk with Jesus ONLY IF YOU ALLOW HIM TO CHANGE THE THINGS THAT ARE NOT PLEASING TO HIM IN YOUR LIFE.

Humility to admit that you need Jesus in your whole life. Experiencing Him deeper because a little knowledge of Him is dangerous. Pride will creep in and suddenly you are not in the center of His will. 

This quarantine season as I have said has magnified my character flaws. So, I will share the story of my acne. My sister is a dermatologist who passed the boards just this week. She gave me this topical that would purge the dirt on my face. OKAY YOU HAVE TO KNOW THAT I JUST STARTED USING A CLEANSER JUST THIS YEAR. I know, ew. But you also have to know that I do not have acne prior to this year. I am pretty much afraid of chemicals placed on my face, that’s why. But since my sister scolded me about it, I obeyed. I used the purging agent and so acne came. I HAVE NEVER SEEN SUCH PIMPLES OF MINE IN MY ENTIRE EXISTENCE AND IT MADE MY INSECURITY STRONG THAT I THANK GOD WE JUST HAVE ONLINE WORK CAUSE IT ISN’T SEEN ON SCREEN. A month, and it is still there. My sister would say that try it until two months if it does not stop, I will have to take some oral meds which bothered me because I don’t place chemicals on my face moreso inside me. 

It made me thought bad about my sister because she can’t even do anything about my face. I had to but these pa when in fact it doesn’t do me any good. Should I trust her? What if my face gets even worse? So, I just thought of the best, consistently placed the prescribed medicine on my face day in and day out and even prayed for my face (that’s how desperate I was) and just this week, the pimples stopped multiplying!!!! This is not a paid advertisement. 

What did I learn? Aside from cleaning my face which I believe was a seven year worth of dirt from commuting in the Manila area as I am a missionary in the universities there, that I have to face the purging. Unless it is dealt with, I won’t have a clean face. My character must be pruned. And as I thought about some of the things God is dealing with me why I did not obey Him is one because I grew up without a dad that is why I did not experience having a protection of a Father so I would decide on my own but what got me was if I know that God who knows best and loves me so much, more than my imperfect sister does, how can I not entrust my life to Him and obey His commands? Because after all, He just wants me to experience a full life in Him.

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