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Hope

When you do not see it, it is hard to have hope. This March has been a series of hope time with the Lord. I am reading the book of Romans and I thought about the gospel. The Lord is impressing on me to press on in the gospel. To hope in Him. To hope for Him. And to hope in His plans- His best. Eternity.

February was more on Faith. And I tell you, it is hard. 2018 as many of you knows is my year dedicated to our Lord Jesus Christ well maybe special because I wanted to just have Him this year. No strings attached to anyone. But I am tempted to just break it because I feel like I am in the right age. That sometimes I get so frustrated that no one is pursuing me. That I feel insecure knowing that I can fight on my own and just get the man that I want but I know that that is not the will that He wants for me. That is not the best. I am reading pa naman this book Different by Design by John Macarthur about being a woman who would wait on Him.

When will love come to play, I asked. Sometimes, God allows me to go through so many work so i could say that I cannot marry yet. HAHA. Especially now that I took on another role on admin work while I am a campus missionary. I enjoy it but sometimes when I feel left behind with my Ministry Partner Development, I feel envious which is not right. So I praise God because this is a time to be pruned by God so that I wouldn’t burden my future husband with my past baggages. I pray that I would be the woman who will be the perfect helpmate for my husband and no one else.

I may be pahiya in other things but I pray that I would never be ashamed of who Jesus is. That I may rpresent Him well for His glory. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

I will post pictures next week for our Baguio trip and Coaching trip.
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