In His Pursuit

  I am learning how to be sensitive to the Holy Spirit’s leading—not quenching what I am burdened about and seeking His will every single step. Living one moment at a time to honor Christ with my one life.  I have always thought that finishing well is a colossal task to take on. But as I was praying about the pain this world blows at me at times, I thought about the joy when I get to heaven and be with Christ for all eternity. For sure, that won’t compare to any superlatives that I can think of here. Romans 8:18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed to us. That at the end of the day, it will be between me and my God. And this is what can help me live a godly life—knowing that God sees what I do and that I am accountable to Him therefore, I will live every single part of my life for Him and for His glory.  We do not know the last day of our lives thus we must live every moment to finish ...

Know that you are God’s child through Jesus Christ, therefore, don’t live a squammy life.  Walk according to your identity. Purpose comes next. If you think your life is a waste, you will really waste it and sin but if you know that you are for a grander future, you are a child of the King, you would not think that you are a waste because Jesus died for you on the cross just to bridge the gap and for us to experience this privilege of knowing Him. You are not God, Michelle and so are you who is reading this blog. I’ve always wanted to control the centripetal force of the universe hindi ko nga maipinta ang sky. Our God created everything out of nothing. He does what pleases Him, I can rest on Him that He is Good and Holy. That He is my Father who loves me.  This world will fade but I have Jesus. This week, feeling ko wala akong kakampi— not even my family. I was looking for affirmation and comfort from people and I was again disappointed. I contemplated while at the comfort roo...

In a short span of time that I got to know Tita has really impacted my life. I shall try to share specific things here so that I get to record how she has encouraged me. The only picture we got together.  I shall start with why the title is short. We were going to minister to a place where our mission trip team went a month prior my mom and I’s visit. We were walking and she made ayos my shorts after it was creased.  That was I think the first time I knew she cared.   I am usually jittery when meeting the mom of the man that I like. But with her, she made me feel comfortable. Pero at first, natakot din ako kasi I know na di ako umaarte like kung sino talaga ako, yun ang ipapakita ko. I don’t set my best foot forward because I know eventually, she would know me and she would know who I really am. I am very takot not to be accepted. Lalo na that is my fear— to not be liked by my future mother-in-law if the Lord wills. But on our vacation time, we got the news that she ...

 Been watching the NBA since the playoffs kaseee I have been out of it since last year. I have always loved basketball. Maiinis pa talaga ako when people make fun of it cause I enjoy being serious about my beloved sports. I even feel sepanx from my ball and the court kasi wala naman kaming court sa loob ng bahay and we are on quarantine. I should obey the government’s desire to contain this virus by doing our small part that collectively is a big contribution. A lackluster living is a mediocre life. Same way with our walk with Jesus— we sleep on one defensive stance or take for granted one possession can cost us the win.  Habits can either make us or break us. How we use our time now can affect our destination. So, how are we in terms of investing for the eternal than the temporal? We have to continue to grow. The moment we feel we arrived is the moment we fall. As I watch the NBA finals, I was thinking about how the veterans feel about the 20 year olds that they are going aga...

  This would be how I would look like if asked what I would say to my younger self. Adding, I hope you obey God’s no consistently because it won’t get any easy as you get older.  Sometimes, because we know that God is Gracious, we would already spend our lives in the way we want it to go knowing that God forgives and He rescues. But as what we have been repeating in this blog, we cannot escape the unnecessary pains that we could have missed if we just chose to yield to the Holy Spirit’s leading. Consistency in your love for Jesus is difficult. A one-time high or a seasonal-high in basketball won’t give you the championship. It will just win you games but the goal is to not just win games, the goal is your whole self experiencing Christ and being transformed into His image.  I learned about myself that whenever I feel like I’ve had enough of God for the day, I would stop being in His presence and will just do my thing. I make Him a to-do list that after talking to Him for ...

Grace. I don’t deserve it. This covid pandemic has somewhat hardened my heart. It has shown my worst. And I believe that this is what really is inside me which haven’t surfaced until now. My flaws were magnified and it has sounded an alarm that I need to work on myself. That because of the too many work that needs attention, I had set myself aside. Whil reading a book on emotionally healthy spirituality, it has shown me that I am no superwoman. That I cannot change the world. That I can only do so much. And God is after my being with Him more than doing things for Him. So that is what I am planning to do as this year closes. But before that, I would love to go back to what happened last July why I started this blog with one word. Birthdays have never been a big deal for me. I enjoy having my birthday with no one knowing about it except my family. Maybe because I didn’t want to expect. I grew up loving my birthdays because of my family. But, there came a point in our life where we strug...

This quarantine season has got me kwahzy. It gave me time to think about my life. It magnified my flaws and it gave me time to pause because commute time was deducted from my everyday life.  It may either make us bitter or better. While having a Sunday service with my family today, you know the feeling of watching a tv show that now narrates the morale of the story? Or the bida would at least tell the audience of his or her realizations. Let me share with you how I am imperfectly walking with the Lord and it is my prayer that you would also experience Christ in this season. At the onset of the quarantine, I was restless. Adjusting from a field work to a home work in no time is needed. Not to mention the responsibility of putting up your family. Making sure that everyone is safe and provided for. It wasn’t an easy ride.  So every time I would hear or see anything annoying, I would turn to my family and they absorb my anger. There was this one time that I got into a discussion w...