In His Pursuit

How relevant is Jesus to you? I heard an RZIM speaker recently that if Jesus is not relevant to you today, He will be more irrelevant to you tomorrow. I've never missed my quiet time with the Lord since I went into full-time ministry, well, that is understandable as you would say to me since that is my job to lead people to an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ. BUT, that is not because that is my primary work, my work is to get on my knees to surrender them to the Lord but that is not what I am doing. My heart faints as a color paled from its dark color to a faded one. This is another draft from years ago and I want to continue writing on it because it is still relevant for me today and I believe until i see Jesus face to face. You see, I have been reading the bible since last year and I just finished it today. How slow my pace is. I wanted to startcommitting to the Lord again and just bask in His presence and His love and just worship Him with my all starting today. ...

When you stumble, it doesn't mean you'll stay there forever. From the movie, X-Men When you think that your world is in shambles, get up and grow. Know that the Lord upholds those who humble themselves and admit that they've failed. There is someone in the bible who is regarded as one of the hall of famers of his age. I'm talking about Abraham. You know the story, not the son side but the lying part. He did lie not just once. And yet God used him to be a father of nations. What grace it is. This was drafted by me years ago and I just want to continue writing on it. It is easy to get to the flow of where you are. To be influenced by other people, well and good if it is for the better but it saddens me that I am easily influenced by the bad things happening around me. After the hazing case that I was following, I found myself getting angry again at my government by allowing the Chief Justice to be ousted through a Quo Warranto process which is just a bait tried ...

When things get out of your hands, will you continue to trust Him? I have drafted this a month or so and this is still the theme of my life now. I know I have not been where I want to be spiritually and even emotionally. My feelings are not in check and so foolishness came into the way. It is hard to word my thoughts as this was written out of the blue. I will just write as how I am feeling right now as this has to get out of my chest. I have been thinking again to go back to pursuing law school as I cannot pursue med because of my fear with blood more so with a dead person. May e even the feel of a hospital scares me. I also thought of being a Binibining Pilipinas (how unrealistic!) and lastly, to apply as a courtside reporter as it is my last year to be qualified for it. All these things for the sake of building myself up because I feel like I am nothing. Have you ever felt that way? Thinking that others are way better than you so you have to keep up? Why are they more beaut...

When you do not see it, it is hard to have hope. This March has been a series of hope time with the Lord. I am reading the book of Romans and I thought about the gospel. The Lord is impressing on me to press on in the gospel. To hope in Him. To hope for Him. And to hope in His plans- His best. Eternity. February was more on Faith. And I tell you, it is hard. 2018 as many of you knows is my year dedicated to our Lord Jesus Christ well maybe special because I wanted to just have Him this year. No strings attached to anyone. But I am tempted to just break it because I feel like I am in the right age. That sometimes I get so frustrated that no one is pursuing me. That I feel insecure knowing that I can fight on my own and just get the man that I want but I know that that is not the will that He wants for me. That is not the best. I am reading pa naman this book Different by Design by John Macarthur about being a woman who would wait on Him. When will love come to play, I asked. Someti...

I am still bothered about how I felt last Saturday about leaving my family going to Baguio with friends. Reality dawned on me that I was leaving my family for a time. How much more if I leave my family to be joined to my future husband. I am learning since the beginning of time to be secure in God and to live for Him alone. But I always go back to it. I feel like I am going back to my old self that I wanted attention and affection from people. Which only Christ satisfies. I've always dreamt of having a nice love story written by God and yet there are times that I want to do it myself. Balancing God's work and your responsibility is almost hard to weigh. Just like being your unique God-designed self to being Christ-like. But only by His grace. In our weekend getaway, I saw how I am such a sinner. God humbled me and I pray that He would continue to humble and prune me into His image. I saw how I needed Him financially, physically, in leading people to Him and most importantl...

I'm back! I started blogging this 2018 at the first two Wednesdays of January and I am continuing it for the last two Wednesdays of February. Commitment wasn't followed up. I'll jumpstart from that to start this blog for tonight. I was not so excited for this year to come. I have mentioned it in my previous write up since 2017 was a pretty much for me, wasn't what I wanted it to be. Distracted. So this year, I wanted to start cool. No expectations but wanted to plan and stick to those plans. One of them is getting into the gym more regularly. I am very lukewarm about it since my mom would always tell me that I am too skinny to go to the gym which I don't get because I go to the gym for health purposes and not to get skinny but I believe that I was fooling myself. I really wanted to get that abs. Yes. I am honest now. And because of that goal, I started the year, well every year, I run on the first day of the year. And I did ball. And after I met with a friend fro...

Hello blog! HAHAHA. You don't start a blog like this, right? Haha. I am really disappointed with how I am not getting better at anything. How I feel like I started from the top and now I am here. HAHAHA instead of started from the bottom now we're here. I found an article of mine about Christ-confidence last 2013. Linking it because this was a  Planetshakers inspired blog  because of their song I Just Want You and I just recently went to their Manila tour. And man, I wanted to go back on the right track. You see, there are things in my life that I wanted to just control. I wanted to do certain things for me to be said to fit in. I like to do those things but I make it exaggerated. And so, I tend to forget other things because I am so focused on trying to do my best to fit in and end up losing because at the end of the day, the last say is God's. I do not know how this blog will end. I am sorry that I don't do my outline as a good writer should. But you know, I am...