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Babe or King

I have never been this challenged in my 10 years  of being with Jesus. I last experienced this much breaking in 2009. I know, I know, it was my fault. This year, was a painful year of break ups, yes, a lot of reltionships neglected because of some priorities I did not juggle well. I was in pain starting January up until today so that marks its one year. I know again that it dated back last December when I didn’t listen to the Lord’s proddings to let go of a man that I like. I tried to justify it to my God and say, we aren’t doing anything wrong naman. And God has given us liberty to choose. BUT THEN AGAIN, WE CANNOT CHOOSE THE CONSEQUENCES OF OUR ACTIONS AND NOW, I AM REAPING IT.

By the start of 2020, even today as I speak, I wanted to just have Jesus. Pero ang hirap. HAHA. My flesh is overtaking many times. I would justify again that it is because I just want to be myself and don’t want to pretend. But again, I know that I should die to myself and live for Jesus lang. To depend on His strength rather than on my own.

So here are two kwentos about that. First, my work and second is purity.

This is a long overdue blog. I got sick on Christmas day until now. But I thank God for my lagnat and ubo because I got to hear God.

So, with work, God really calls us and it is a matter of really knowing yourself, how God has designed you to be and where He can use you more. That there is no work better than the other. After attending my sister’s residency program graduation, I realized, God is pleased as long as we follow His leading.

And during this Christmas, and every other Christmas before this year, I heard people say that my sister is a doctor and I am a missionary, but I never felt jealous of the position because I know that my security and accountability is with my Lord Jesus Christ.

With purity, I saw a tweet that it is possible and it is beautiful. Those are two things for me. One is somewhat mandate and the latter is the motivation. Maybe and I feel sometimes that purity is a big task and it makes me proud when I become victorious but I remember my dgroup leader saying, if God tells us to be holy for He is holy, we have the capacity to do it because the Holy Spirit is with us to empower us. And the greatest motivation for it is, JESUS CHRIST, the reason for this season.

So, I will end this with the realization I had during Christmas, if our view of Jesus is being the baby  in a manger and not the King, it will be impossible to live a holy life.

From Michelle with love! See you 2020! ❤️

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