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Adulting

Being a 23-year old woman who wants to follow Jesus and glorify Him in everything, is both a joy and a fear. I know that the Lord loves me and is in control of all things and just wants what's best for me and at the same time fearful of what the future holds. I am fearful that I might not like the person that He would want for me. But, I trust the Lord that what He wants glorifies Him but there is that thin line that is hard for me to surrender. The thought that I would not get along with the husband that He has for me. But, trusting Him that He is the best match-maker. I just have to look back at his track record.

My mission is to glorify God and so, if that is who God wants, that is what will glorify Him and that is where He can maximize me.

As I went full-time in the ministry, I have the desire to serve Him but I am afraid of a shadow mission to be prideful and by God's grace, He allowed me to serve Him with the right motives and now enjoying serving Him but in marrying, it is hard for me not to think of my shadow mission of having someone to have the leverage in discipling since I feel insecure with not being able to learn in the context of relationships. But, the Lord rebuked me that it is not in my strength and power but by His and that my security is in Him and my identity is not in who I am but in who Christ is, who is in me.

Humility, the word which I am not expert in. I am prideful and I am ashamed of that. It is my prayer that as 2017 enters, I would humble myself before the Lord and just surrender everything into His hands. That everything came from Him and I have no right to take anything from Him. All are His grace.

So, as I go to adulthood, as the Lord led me this year in satisfaction in the Lord, it is my prayer that He would sanctify me for the next years of my adulthood. Jesus is all that I need. How He loved me with all. How He cared for me and provided for me since the start. How He has been so faithful in providing. With this, it is my prayer that I would be a godly steward of all that He entrusted to me. To focus on what is at hand. My family, disciples and the ministry He entrusted under my care to establish His Kingdom here on earth. To live for eternity. By loving Him forever through the Holy Spirit's empowerment.

Humble yourselves before the Lord
James 4:10a 


In His Pursuit,
Michelle Aquino
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