The Satisfaction that Satisfies

I've never felt secure in my life,
I've always thought I'm not good enough.

I was always the good girl outside,
Covering the scamp girl inside.

Would memorize verses to recite,
But do not in my heart coincide.
So, I headed on loving this world
The world loved me not back the way I would.

I continued my strings with the world,
To fill my heart's hole, 'be whole again,
by the applause and praise of captain,
I was in the wrong ship, joy mundane.

Sorrowful for my foolish entanglements,
I let go and let God do His will in His amends.
Knowing now that nothing in this world will satisfy,
I surrendered everything into His care to fly.

Yes, Jesus loves me and His death on the cross proved it.
His forgiveness and grace became so real,
That it jumped out of the bible's pages.
He is the only One- the satisfaction that satisfies.

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