In His Pursuit

This is me now.  I want to look to the light and go back to an intimate relationship with my Lord Jesus Christ. Revelation 2 says look from where you have fallen and go back to what you've done from the start. Only Jesus. Stand amazed before Him. Humility. These are some of the things I am learning in the first half of 2017. Step it up.  Walk with people not isolate yourself because it will not do you good. You may have your own time but it will pay off to spend time with people to love them. Learn to give generously because everything comes from the Lord. It's not how much you give but how much you leave for yourself. Pray more. Everything should be prayed about. Pray with one another.  Enjoy little things.  Run-of-the-mill Manage your time. So you can sleep more. Mission Trip 2016 Photos

I’ve seen the hue I would love forever I want to marry the other, But I surrender, Because You know better. This was taken in my run that week in the park near our home, I was in the beginning of my run and the sun is high up but no worries for my tan burn. My fruitful run last week. Looped in the park twice, looped in the jogger's lane a lot of times. That's why it looks like that. I should run in a letter M next time. HAHA. Running has been my buddy these past few weeks as I am training for a run on July. And aside from the runner's high it gives me, it has been showing me sights that I don’t usually see on a usual fast-paced straight-ahead focused day.  The sky and antennas in the park where I usually run. I have been a complainer and have been easily angered in thoughts, make-faces, words and even actions. And that is because I am not filled with the Holy Spirit because again I am not embracing the presence of the Lord in ...

2017 opened for me as striped as my dress, my aunt's dress that we bought together haha. The end of 2016 for me was not as good as I want it to happen. I wanted a smooth-sailing 2016 to go to 2017 seamlessly. But, family and finances struck down. My mom was sick on Christmas Eve, lots to be sold were postponed, bills coming, tenant not obeying our rules and on January 1, a motorcycle fast-approaching hit our side mirror and he fell and bruised his face. We will all face sad moments but how we handle it is what matters because at the end of the day, were you pruned and molded to be more Christ-like? This 2017, I want to be predictably joyful but circumstances like the things I mentioned above will really get into you if you allow it to. So, what should be our faint-heartedness-buster? His Word. His Love. His Spirit in us. And we can live this life for Him because this isn't ours anymore, but His. Above all, this earth is temporary but Jesus is permanent. So, what d...

Being a 23-year old woman who wants to follow Jesus and glorify Him in everything, is both a joy and a fear. I know that the Lord loves me and is in control of all things and just wants what's best for me and at the same time fearful of what the future holds. I am fearful that I might not like the person that He would want for me. But, I trust the Lord that what He wants glorifies Him but there is that thin line that is hard for me to surrender. The thought that I would not get along with the husband that He has for me. But, trusting Him that He is the best match-maker. I just have to look back at his track record. My mission is to glorify God and so, if that is who God wants, that is what will glorify Him and that is where He can maximize me. As I went full-time in the ministry, I have the desire to serve Him but I am afraid of a shadow mission to be prideful and by God's grace, He allowed me to serve Him with the right motives and now enjoying serving Him but in marrying...

Yes, LORD, I admit that I've committed adultery and consequences, I cannot escape. I am an adulteress. I committed myself to Jesus yet, I am loving another and not loving God with my all. I am so distracted with the things of this world-- how much you have, how deep your bank account is, how are your investments rolling, how good looking you are, how are you doing in climbing up the career ladder as you prepare for the future but I haven't considered how much Jesus loves me so that He would lead me to His good, acceptable and perfect will which is the best. Have I fully understood the Lord's goodness? No. That is why I am agit and legit worried about the future because I haven't trusted in who He is. I was reminded by a mission trip where everybody was diving into the sea and I am not. My teammates said they will throw me the salbabida and so I trusted them that they would give it when I appear from the water. They gave it and I am alive now. How hurtful it is when...

It's been a while since I tried writing here. Been to a mission trip and now facing the reality of my vow to the Lord at the start of this year. Compared to last year, my character has been under refinery this past few months. I felt like I've arrived and so pride cost me and has put shame on my Savior and Lord.  Early this year, I wanted to make my year clear from any idol and so vowed to the Lord to follow and love Him alone, literally, no other man. No adultery.  Balance of everything. I've been praying about this for two years now and I always get my Lord down because of me not standing my ground. When my heart broke late this year, I went to my knees and was reminded by what I told the Lord early this year. I broke His heart again. I don't want to hurt Him again and I know that I should die to myself and live for Him alone. So, I resolved with the Lord to wait for him for another year, 2017 for Jesus. It hurts but if I trust Him that He will bring...

The Lord wants us to be godly men and women and we can only do that through the power of the Holy Spirit. First thing that I learned is to love other people even though it hurts. People are not perfect. And so am I. Even though it hurts to see people that you love, hurting you, we must forgive and trust God that He is Sovereign and in control and He is our great reward. To die to self and live this life for Jesus because Jesus' life bought me with a price. To go higher where we were yesterday. To be filled with the Holy Spirit and practice yielding to Him and whatever He commands, YES! He has not observed iniquity in Jacob, nor has he seen wickedness in Israel. The Lord his God is with him. Numbers 23:21. And in verse 8, not to curse whom God blessed. Truth is exclusive. And our past is not what defines us.  In the vision, I just thought now that I can have not a child in the future if I just wait until I am well capable of providing for my fam. But, God ca...