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Insect Bite

It's been a while since I tried writing here. Been to a mission trip and now facing the reality of my vow to the Lord at the start of this year. Compared to last year, my character has been under refinery this past few months. I felt like I've arrived and so pride cost me and has put shame on my Savior and Lord. 

Early this year, I wanted to make my year clear from any idol and so vowed to the Lord to follow and love Him alone, literally, no other man. No adultery. 

Balance of everything.
I've been praying about this for two years now and I always get my Lord down because of me not standing my ground. When my heart broke late this year, I went to my knees and was reminded by what I told the Lord early this year. I broke His heart again. I don't want to hurt Him again and I know that I should die to myself and live for Him alone.

So, I resolved with the Lord to wait for him for another year, 2017 for Jesus. It hurts but if I trust Him that He will bring him on His time and way. 

Develop my self, learn and experience new things.
Be humble.
Develop new relationships and strengthen old friendships.
Enjoy singlehood before the sun sets and face a new day.
May I live for the Lord's vision for me alone. If that man doesn't wait for me to be complete in Him alone, I trust the Lord that He knows best. I surrender. 

Today, I got bitten by insects at home after praying. I have this pillow under our study table and would kneel in that pillow and pray but after I prayed, I got red hands and legs. I was so hurt but I know that my time with the Lord is better than the bites though it still hurts until now. 

Dear God, I pray that I would enjoy You more in my life and make the most out of my time of being single and all my life to You laser-focused. May I exemplify a life glorifying and pleasing to You my Lover and Friend. You are my Greatest and Only Reward. Lord, may I have You forever. I am Yours.

In Your Pursuit,
Michelle Manansala Aquino

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