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Not going back to who I was before.

January of this year, I tried to shoot around to prepare my resolution to get better at shooting. I praise God cause I believe that I did recently after getting to know a shooting coach.

I've been fascinated by the science of sports these past few days maybe it was also brought about by my watching of games aside from the innate heart that I have for sports.

I am amazed by their discipline, grit and the courage to finish well.

Have you ever felt the pagod of doing something that you love?

I've always thought that I would be able to do what I love in the long run. Maybe, just maybe. But you know what, I felt so tired serving the Lord last year September, but that isn't the reason why I was absent the last month here on this page, it was the other way around. I felt tired of putting up with someone I love. I felt so tired just being mabait. That is why at times I am very masungit. Why is that so?

I was thinking, if the person that I will be masungit to, dies at the moment, will I still say what I am itching to say? I bet not. If I know that the encouragement that I would say to a person will brighten his or her day, will I hold that up from him? I guess not. If I know that God will be glorified in my service to Him instead of serving this world for the temporal, will I back down?

Maybe we could be tired cause we are not a marvel but aside from not being a marvel, we are also in need of filling. Have you tried running on an empty stomach? Well, I do, I almost fainted. I still continued to do it to burn the fats that I am not burning, but after a while, it cost me much. I cannot do it anymore, maybe because I am not getting the right and enough nutrition. I am so thin these days which I am not intending to do. I didn't even go to the gym this week to gain some weight naman. I even left my clothes from last week at the office where the gym is. Ew right? I might dispose them after, i keed.

Yes, I want to talk to You, my Lord Jesus last thing at night and first thing in the morning. I want to get enough of You, Lord but I know that I won't be sawa of you. I want to experience You so intimately that You are all that I would ever need and no one's affirmation.

Be honored.

Trusting in You,
Michelle
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