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Freedom

NBA slipped off my hands. The once-in-a-lifetime dream. I thought I can finally live it out.
FOMO- I have drafted this, and I think I have duplicated my draft because I was able to post a FOMO post a long time ago. I drafted this, 10/9/13. I am thinking of applying for courtside for the sake of FOMO but I do not want to miss out on God’s plan, so whatever His will is.

I am cleaning up my drafts and trying to continue them before I start anew. I was asked by my disciple how I destress and I was shocked that she asked that. She really throws questions that are out of the box, if I may describe my meetigs with her. I sometimes like it, if I know the answer but most of the time, I do not know what to answer so I grabbed my sandwich, my favorite veggie delight from subway, and bit some to think and blurted out, how I am not good in accountability. No one wants accountability. No one wants to reveal their weaknesses. I have been watching the world cup and it is very hard how the coaches are planning how to deal with their weaknesses and not flaunt them. The same with the social media. One of the reasons I am not a social media poster is because of the fact that I might stumble somebody else and I might get addicted to the likes and affirmation of people which I know is my weakness. I do not want masking myself with filters that are in reality doesn’t exist. Plus the fact that I need to answer the comments of people. Please do not get me wrong, I would love to connect to people but it is taxing for me to answer every single comment publicly which i am thinking of the others seeing the comment as well so I would rather have private convos but sometimes I don’t feel luke talking as well. The bottomline that the Lord has been speaking to me is HUMILITY. I am very proud that is why I asked God to break me and lo, He did. He took all the things that I get my security on and I was freed. I just knew this week that Exodus was about freedom. The Philippines has just celebrated our Independence Day last week and my exodus in Exodus has been a timely theme. I have been freed by God from my past and I do not have to go back to it and now, He is leading me to Him- the promised land. Of course, I have my thoughts of His promises but now, it is letting Him decide for me. Because no one else is like God. 

This week has been painful physically but emotional pain is hurtful than my cough. But, the Lord reminded me to mourn before Him and allow Him to comfort me and not look on the wrong places. To not fear about missing out as long as I am where God has called me. So, I am praying for education certification as I prepare for the future homeschooling of my children and praying for how to earn extra to save up for the future. 

I also learned that God wants me to be myself and not be pressured by others but to trust that the Lord loves me so!

Lord, we thank You because You are our life and You are on Your throne, high and exalted. I thank You because You are All- Powerful, You are our Provider, You are our Redeemer, You are our victory and banner. Be magnified! In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

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