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I'm His

One step forward or a miss step, it would have been game over.

This week, it was official. I am now a campus missionary though they now call it campus trainee. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to divulge the difference between the two since everything is not final yet until I sign the contract and it's the first time they're having trainees so again, first batch.

It was a breather for me, now knowing my mission. (Reviewing the 3 important Ms of my life and I guess with some of you as well, Master, Mission and Mate.) But it struck me as well on how hard it will be especially I have to not just think of the work but how I will raise my monthly support. Well, in a real world you don't go into a company where you will work and you have to look for ways to earn your salary in another way, am I making sense here? No. Hahaha. My whole point is this, I am distracted by the things I'm not in control of and it made me nuts and unfocused on the work prepared for me. 

How God created our eyes and how we can see colors
just amazes me. No doubt, it's His fingers.
When I heard the song, "God said it and I believe it and that settles it all for me." I was reminded, Michelle, it's not you who will do the work, I got you. I brought you here and there's no way I would forget you. I was reminded of His faithfulness throughout the years. Resting my heart on His promises and goodness. The One who created the complexities of this life. From the 100 billions of galaxies, inside the local group where 30 galaxies exist at the edge of Virgo Supercluster, to the milky way which measures 80,000 light-years to the thousand of light years of earth from the sun (where a hit or a miss hit could fry us up here on earth, just a little difference where it is now, life won't be possible. Our maker knows what He's doing, really.) up to my heart. God cares and thinks of you. (Psalm 40:5, "Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders which You have done, and Your thoughts toward us; there is none to compare with You. If I would declare and speak of them, they would be too numerous to count.") Imagine, we're just a dot in the dot in the dot in the dot in the dot in the dot.

My favorite place on the earth after underpasses. I know,
what I like are kind of weird. 
I almost died early this evening. I was crossing in the ped xing which I thought I have the right to but this car decided to make a u-turn in the pedestrian lane while I was crossing, good thing he stepped on his breaks 'cause if not I would not be able to type this blog anymore. I thought, he was just going to overtake and so I took one more step but eventually he turned and just in time, I stepped back and he said sorry. It was all right, I forgave him but after that I thought to myself if I died, praise God 'cause I'm obeying the rules of crossing on the right place and I didn't die, praise God. (Psalm 39:4-5, LORD, make me to know my end and what is the extent of my days; let me know how transient I am. Behold, You have made my days as handbreadths, and my lifetime as nothing in Your sight; surely every man at his best is a mere breath.) That's what I felt when I passed the application. Whether or not I get into missions or not, I would still praise God 'cause this solitary life is His bought at a price by Jesus' precious blood. 

My take home for this week is that knowing that God is Sovereign and thus we can't help but stand in awe of Him, honor (big word, it's pretty hard and impossible but we do it by God's grace.) Him in everything. Whether it be in behavior at home or outside. How I react on circumstances must be different from the worldly way of approaching it. Give God weight, the biggest weight in not just big decisions but include Him in every step that I make. 


In His Pursuit,
MichelleAquino
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