In His Pursuit

I have never been this challenged in my 10 years  of being with Jesus. I last experienced this much breaking in 2009. I know, I know, it was my fault. This year, was a painful year of break ups, yes, a lot of reltionships neglected because of some priorities I did not juggle well. I was in pain starting January up until today so that marks its one year. I know again that it dated back last December when I didn’t listen to the Lord’s proddings to let go of a man that I like. I tried to justify it to my God and say, we aren’t doing anything wrong naman. And God has given us liberty to choose. BUT THEN AGAIN, WE CANNOT CHOOSE THE CONSEQUENCES OF OUR ACTIONS AND NOW, I AM REAPING IT. By the start of 2020, even today as I speak, I wanted to just have Jesus. Pero ang hirap. HAHA. My flesh is overtaking many times. I would justify again that it is because I just want to be myself and don’t want to pretend. But again, I know that I should die to myself and live for Jesus lang. To depend on