In His Pursuit

How relevant is Jesus to you? I heard an RZIM speaker recently that if Jesus is not relevant to you today, He will be more irrelevant to you tomorrow. I've never missed my quiet time with the Lord since I went into full-time ministry, well, that is understandable as you would say to me since that is my job to lead people to an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ. BUT, that is not because that is my primary work, my work is to get on my knees to surrender them to the Lord but that is not what I am doing. My heart faints as a color paled from its dark color to a faded one. This is another draft from years ago and I want to continue writing on it because it is still relevant for me today and I believe until i see Jesus face to face. You see, I have been reading the bible since last year and I just finished it today. How slow my pace is. I wanted to startcommitting to the Lord again and just bask in His presence and His love and just worship Him with my all starting today.

When you stumble, it doesn't mean you'll stay there forever. From the movie, X-Men When you think that your world is in shambles, get up and grow. Know that the Lord upholds those who humble themselves and admit that they've failed. There is someone in the bible who is regarded as one of the hall of famers of his age. I'm talking about Abraham. You know the story, not the son side but the lying part. He did lie not just once. And yet God used him to be a father of nations. What grace it is. This was drafted by me years ago and I just want to continue writing on it. It is easy to get to the flow of where you are. To be influenced by other people, well and good if it is for the better but it saddens me that I am easily influenced by the bad things happening around me. After the hazing case that I was following, I found myself getting angry again at my government by allowing the Chief Justice to be ousted through a Quo Warranto process which is just a bait tried

When things get out of your hands, will you continue to trust Him? I have drafted this a month or so and this is still the theme of my life now. I know I have not been where I want to be spiritually and even emotionally. My feelings are not in check and so foolishness came into the way. It is hard to word my thoughts as this was written out of the blue. I will just write as how I am feeling right now as this has to get out of my chest. I have been thinking again to go back to pursuing law school as I cannot pursue med because of my fear with blood more so with a dead person. May e even the feel of a hospital scares me. I also thought of being a Binibining Pilipinas (how unrealistic!) and lastly, to apply as a courtside reporter as it is my last year to be qualified for it. All these things for the sake of building myself up because I feel like I am nothing. Have you ever felt that way? Thinking that others are way better than you so you have to keep up? Why are they more beaut