In His Pursuit

Blame. The magician, David. Haha. This is a joke. We can blame everything and everyone under the sun but we cannot control everything and everyone. Seriously speaking, the Philippines has been traumatized by typhoons since 2009's Ondoy and now, a little pouring of rain, everybody just gets out of themselves. September 19, class was cancelled. Prior to that day, I was so exhausted that I wanted to stay with my pillows all day. God granted my wish! The problem came when I sneaked my head into our window and saw the ankle-deep flood just outside our house. "My flight, how's my flight?" I don't know why but I always wanted to experience this. Having a problem with my flight, for thrill . I panicked for real . Be careful what you think of. The morning. I was relax until the rain haven't stopped. Spent my time with the Lord. Rested. Watched television and laughed with family. Afternoon came and it still haven't subsided but got worse. I had to ask other pe...

When God says so, do so. I am a stone-head. If you could have any other superlative for hard-headed, please tag it to me. I never wanted to yield. When some rules are implemented, I always want to go against it because I don't want to go with where people are. I always wanted to be in white when everybody are in black. No dictation. God has told me to surrender "what-I-want-to-hold-back" back then. I tried to ignore the red flags and went head on. Consequences reaped. I don't want it to happen ever again. So, how do you follow what God says? When we don't do what we know we should do is the greatest tragedy. What's the sense of spending time in God's word listening to Him when after listening we won't do what He says. First, humble ourselves to God that we cannot do it on our own. Great news is that His grace is available and is perfect and sufficient for us. Next, repent and break off from the bondages that you were in by rebuking the spiri...

Give Me Faith by Elevation Worship I need You to soften my heart, To break me apart. I need You to open my eyes, To see that You're shaping my life. All I am, I surrender. Give me faith to trust what You say That You're good, and Your love is great. I'm broken inside, I give You my life. I may be weak, but Your Spirit's strong in me. My flesh may fail, but My God You never will. It's been hard for me how to draft this out. Faith. It's been a week since God assured me of a crucial thing to do.  What's our tendency? Trust ourselves and neglect God's promise because that will give us fast results that can be seen unlike when we obey God, doubt will be there.  How will we know what faith is. I've been thinking about this so long that's why I posted this late. What faith is not? Doubting what God says is not faith. Depending on yourself is not faith. Acting without God's go signal. What is faith...

When we give to the Lord, it must cost us something. I am really distressed when I don't release what I want to release. I want it now. This is what's so wrong about me. No patience. When I feel like shouting to someone, I would want to. As I grew older, it became harder to control. Just think of anything that you have to control. I came across 1 Chronicles 21. Satan is always there ready to devour. If we will not restrain our desires, we'll make wrong choices and we will displease God. Just like David who was in great distress because he asked Joab to take the census which God didn't say so to do. But, God was merciful to lighten/shorten the consequence he gave to David. But as we all know, our bad choices will always reap consequences. But God gives second chances. Like David (adulterer, murderer) and Moses (Egyptian Slayer), God still used them though they sinned. To build an altar for the Lord and to bring the Israelites out of Egypt. However, it will cost ...

How do you trust? In business, you don’t trust, you always have collaterals because in that world, there is no such thing as free lunch. When reality doesn’t match God’s promise, it’s so easy to resort to the lesser thing which can satisfy my craving for the moment and I believe in my heart (wrong) that it’s okay with God since He promised a thing in His time. What did I miss? God’s amazing writing of how He will make the impossible to reality. Will you settle for the one who is there or the one God has told you to wait for years? If you’re like me, sigurista, my answer would be whoever comes first, I can’t wait that long! What if that time won’t come? I can’t imagine how that will happen. I have to do some things to help God out. Enk. (Buzz of a wrong answer) Are you saying God isn’t able? You know what happens with that? You’ll make it a mess. Remember, you are not God. I tried to help God out because I thought that if I won’t do anything, nothing will happen. The pro...

For I am not ashamed of Him who saved me. I'm in His Great Dance Flooooooor! Hey Jesus! You make me crazier because of Your crazy love for me, my Lord. I'm out of words how Jesus has forgiven me, how He has loved me (from the start though He knows that I will mess up) and how He wants me to be back in His loving arms. Aww. It's too amazing that He who created the world, He who holds the universe would want me to enjoy His presence moment by moment. My prayer: we will show Jesus in our lives. To honor Him. I failed so many times because I was doing it on my own. Rely on the Lord. He carried the shame for me. I carried His name but I put it to shame and that reflected on Him. But now, it became more real to me, that satan (not capital letter) has no sting over me. That God has won it all for me. And that I'm on the winning side--- Jesus!! You carry us, carry us when the world gives way. Since Passion, God showed me what freedom means. That God has...

A city on a hill that can't be hidden because of its light. The how-we-should-live. We arrived to a nearby province up north of the Philippines by 3:30 in the morning. What about that? Waking up from your shallow sleep in a lazy boy and not knowing that we're there already. I did not know that the bus flew. Haha. The city from top of the tops. Chocolate of the top instead of cream of the top. Haha. While on the road, I can't catch my sleep though I am in dire need of a rest from a week's work, and the anxy knowing that I have to leave for Baguio just eight hours before the scheduled departure from Manila. I can't sleep because I don't trust the bus driver. Haha. Despite the reminder posted above in filipino, "Ako ay isang maingat na driver.".  In englsih, "I drive safely.". I look at the windshield since we're on the first row, after a quick folding of the eyes. Though my mom advised me to take a nap, I guess she's te...