In His Pursuit

Yes, LORD, I admit that I've committed adultery and consequences, I cannot escape. I am an adulteress. I committed myself to Jesus yet, I am loving another and not loving God with my all. I am so distracted with the things of this world-- how much you have, how deep your bank account is, how are your investments rolling, how good looking you are, how are you doing in climbing up the career ladder as you prepare for the future but I haven't considered how much Jesus loves me so that He would lead me to His good, acceptable and perfect will which is the best. Have I fully understood the Lord's goodness? No. That is why I am agit and legit worried about the future because I haven't trusted in who He is. I was reminded by a mission trip where everybody was diving into the sea and I am not. My teammates said they will throw me the salbabida and so I trusted them that they would give it when I appear from the water. They gave it and I am alive now. How hurtful it is when